What is your dream? What motivates
you?
I don't know about
you, but I know what I want for my life and, quite frankly, i'm nowhere near
where I want to be.
I have one and
only one dream: to have children.
It sounds simple,
but it isn't, at least not for me.
If I am going to
have children, I want to give them everything: a nice house, an excellent
education, a dog (or if they really want, a cat...), the best food, clothes.
Well, everything a parent wants for their children. The thing is, I want my
kids to have more than other kids. More opportunities. If they want to be
doctors, I'll help them become doctors. If they want to be musicians, I want
them to be musicians and I'll pay for the instruments and classes. Whatever
they want and need, I want to be there for them, always.
And more than
anything, I don't want them to have my flaws. I want them to be better human
beings than me. Hopefully, they'll be more like my girlfriend who's kinder and
more complete, not a walking contradiction like yours truly.
So, I know what I
want but like so many others, things aren't going my way. I work a lot but I
don't seem to get the proper reward. What I've learned from my 5 short years as
an employee is that you don't have to be good or work hard, you only have to be
a very good pretender.
Pretenders are
those people that are always working when the boss is around and kiss their ass
when they talk to each other. I have people that work until midnight only to
get more visibility, though they aren't working at all...
I get jealous of
what others get if I feel like I deserve as much or more. I know a lot of
people who are better than me at what they do and I always feel good when they
get a raise or a promotion.
Why do you think I
feel depressed at work?
My team has 5
people but only 3 actually work. One of them always arrive late (as in 2/3
hours late) and goes home early. The other does absolutely nothing. He was in
some other team and was transferred to mine. He clearly didn't like the
transfer and it shows. Zero work and even plays Tetris. At least the game is
good, right?
When it comes to
productivity, we have a way of measuring it. We solve problems and problems can
be quantified. The latest productivity report says I've produced more results
than any of my 4 other teammates combined. To be honest, one of them is the
boss and other solves the hardest problems (this last one is the best
professional I've had the honor of working with).
To summarize:
there's me, my boss, the hard problem solver, the "Tetris" guy and
the "woman who works less than 5 hours a day, not counting the 30 minute
cigar breaks".
I would fire the
two latest.
Hopefully, things
will get better!
Thank you for
reading. I believe millions more feel the same way I feel.
